Have you ever felt that life will bring all the “bad” things in one day? When you go at work, you have a fight with a coworker and you feel guilty. You are driving back home as your cell phone rings; it’s your dad and he wants you to have dinner with the family on weekend. You just refuse by finding an excuse and again you feel guilty. Before you sleep, all these thoughts are in your head as you keep rolling all over. All these images, the conversations you had, the excuses, the guilt and the biggest question of all “What if I told them otherwise? Did I make the wrong decision?”. Write your thoughts down and actually see how many times you had to use excuses. Do you feel that you are doing the wrong thing or that you are around the wrong people? This pretty much would explain why you are not on the same level of frequencies and why you try to bridge the gap by using all these excuses. You feel bad cos you suppress your needs and if you don’t, you feel guilty again towards yourself.
Human relationships are hard but yet again above all it’s the self respect. If you made a specific decision, it means that at that time it was the best for you. There is no point to analyze the situation too much. You will definitely realize that from every aspect you will feel guilty. Now you may wonder if there is anything to do so as to fix it. How you will stop regretting about most of the things you do? Be real. Be yourself. Get in touch with the knowledge within. If you feel that you made a bad decision, before you start blaming yourself or everyone else, ask yourself why you did. One sentence or one word will be enough to define it. Know your motives and make the necessary changes. Reach out to the people who want to be around you. You will feel who is the right one for you. If you feel yourself and that you don’t need to pretend or find excuses, then it’s when you know that the friend with similar mindset will give you her hand and walk with you!
Last night you had one more time that intense dream about jumping off a huge cliff. You kept falling and falling and falling… Before you crash on the ground you got up. Have you noticed that usually these dreams show up when you are under big pressure? Your dream stops to the point before you crash cos you have to decide what you really want to do with your life. Do you want to jump and set yourself free? Do you want to jump and crash on the ground once and forever? Before you take breakfast, give yourself 10 minutes. These are the crucial minutes when you still have a vivid memory of your dream. Meditate and set yourself back in the dream. Now jump again and see yourself falling. Feel the tension, the fear, the overwhelming but remember that you are the one who can stop it anytime. Now see yourself landing on the ground without a single scratch. You survived under the pressure. You tamed that fear from your subconsciousness.
You grab your jacket fast as you rush to your work. Your boss is waiting for you on the door as you are late this time. He gives you the look of failure. You give him the look of falling into nothingness. He’s confused cos he doesn’t know if he made you be scared of him or if you broke off his pressure. As you sit on your chair in front of your desk, write on a paper “Freedom”. These little moments can set you fee. When you can take control of situations like these, nothing can take you down. You are more powerful than you think. Everything is in your mind, mind over matter as most people say. You know it’s true. You feel it’s true. Enjoy your new reality. The reality you made and you will make everyday. A spirit can never be tamed unless it’s his will. It’s up to you what you want to do with your life. Free will. Your choice. Enjoy and manifest it!